Regrets 

Regrets, I am at the stage in life when I start pondering regrets. Really, I don’t think so, I guess I really mean I do think so , I’m just saying I have had regrets for a good portion of my life. The thought comes to mind, not when I was young, OK, I mean I really young, infant maybe. I wonder how old I was the first time I realized I shouldn’t thrown that in their face. Some of my first recollections are of thinking I wish I wouldn’t of said or done that. Fortunately, most people are not like me. I am not a particularly good person. Speaking of regrets, my computer crashed, So I got my child’s old lap that I used in Mayo. I can’t get it to let me in. It says I don’t know the password. On the bright side before long I might not remember anything. That could solve the whole regretting issue. Therefore I am writing this without seeing what I am typing. I have the app on my phone and I bought a 20$ keyboard which enables to type or read, but I lack the eyesight and skill to try and do both at the same time. Being I am prone to all kinds of mistakes which anyone who knows me, knows; editing will be interesting. Don’t get excited I am not talking about something new, I am just referring to the hap hazard proofreading I always kind of do. It does seem a little magically, I type and look on my phone and words are there. Wonder if my life would have been different if people, well teachers, could have read what I wrote. Is that a regret, nay. You see on the topic of regretting I have a different point of view. I try to either avoid or forget. I find simple phrases are the easiest to remember. I am finding out I can type and read the words on my phone at the same time. It hurts my eyes and my neck so I choose not to. That what I am talking about with regret, I choose not to. I was listening to either Fresh Air or This American Life and a guy was talking about how he left both his parents in the hospital when they were dying He left his mom because she was mean and the only way they could get along was from a far. He left his dad because he left him when he was young. It must have been Fresh Air because Teri asked him if he was Ok with that decision and I thought his answer was great, “Yes, but I anticipate growing regret.” That is what I want to avoid; doing things that will cause growing regret. I am talking in the present and future tense, while my writing may not show it I am familiar with these terms. To all the people I have wronged in the past I am truly sorry. I put the word truly in so you would know I am not just saying it to be nice, although I seldom get accused of that. In short, people I have wronged, get over it, I have. It will be best for everyone if we just move on thinking I am OK. So my advice to everyone is to just move on thinking your OK.

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